Coming out

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On July 9th 2015, I came out to family and friends that I am Bisexual. I know I made a post on here discussing this, but extended family and 99% of my friends do not know about this blog.  I decided to come out through my Facebook and that was the most nerve wracking experience of my life.

My dad’s side of the family is absolutely against anything or anyone dealing with the LGBTQ community.  I have heard my own Aunt say that she would not support any business that hired gay/lesbian individuals.  I have had heated debates with my own grandmother and she told me that I needed to check my faith.

I grew up in a Christian household and my dad’s side of the family is pretty extreme when it comes to religion.  They are the kind of people who give Christians a bad name due to all the hate, judgement, and condemnation that they hold in their hearts. So you could probably imagine all the anxiety and fear that I felt before I came out publically.

Thank God that I have an amazing support system from friends and family.  I only heard from like 5% of my dad’s side of the family about supporting me, but to me, that is better than nothing.  I cannot express how relieved and happy I felt after I “came out”.

In about a month, we have a family get together with everyone on my dad’s side of the family….I am terrified…

My immediate family has been extremely supportive, but I still feel a lot of anxiety about this upcoming family get together.  You know it’s bad when your family is already planning tactics like taking two cars in case we need to make a quick get away.  I have had a couple nightmares of just being bashed by my own relatives and feeling trapped.  I have woken up with a cold sweat and tears.  I am not afraid to stand up for myself, but I am afraid of losing some relatives because they are too close minded to hear me out.

I am not ashamed for who I am.  I am glad that I can finally be who I am.  I encourage anyone who is in a similar predicament to just hold your head up high and not let anyone tell you who you are.

I have learned from a very wise and amazing woman (my mom) that people who truly matter will be happy for me and support me.  If I have to let go of extended family, I will. This life is short, there is no room for negativity.

May God bless and watch over YOU always ❤

-Jen

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