As I lay in bed, I stare at the digital clock that sits on a desk near my bed. I watch as the “:” symbol in between the numbers disappears and then reappears again. I begin to count once a minute goes by, “one”, “two”, all the way to sixty, keeping in time with the blinking of the symbol. As I began to count again from one, after another minute goes by, I realized something…. I am never going to get back those two minutes of my life that I just wasted staring at my digital clock, seeing if sixty blinks of the symbol is exactly one minute. Now I know you may be thinking that I am super weird, and I am not going to lie, I am, but I also realized in that moment how fast life passes by. Time doesn’t stop and neither does life. I am never going to get time back. Time only moves forward and in this day and age, it seems as if time is only going by faster.
This morning lead to a new awakening. Every moment in our lives count, whether it is good, bad, or indifferent. Every second that goes by, we will never get back. All we have from the past are memories that are either captured in a picture or stored in our brains. We can choose to replay old memories or make new ones. We can’t change what has happened in the past and we can’t predict the future. All we have is now. As I write this post, I begin to think about my life. I remember the day before I turned 13 and I could not wait to be a “teenager”. But now, I wish that I cherished being 12 more than I did. Being 19 and heading towards 20 is scary!!! Being an adult is scary! Having massive responsibilities and growing up is…well…terrifying (HA you thought I was going to say “scary”, I am such a child).
All I know is that I cannot stop time and I can either sit back and watch life pass me by, or I can do something. I choose to do something…anything! I want to love deeper, laugh harder, cherish every moment, let go of grudges, paint a picture, I don’t know!!! I want to live a life worth living. I want to make a difference in this world, I want to make people happy, I want to do something significant, and I want to live a life where I AM happy.
I am done watching time tick on by.
I am ready to do something and make every moment, every second, count. I hope you do the same.
May God bless and watch over YOU always ❤