No, this post is not about blazin up or drugs. This post is about my first major car accident.
It has been about 3 and a half weeks since the accident.
That accident changed my life.
4/20/2016 10:20 am
I am on my way to Nekter Juice Bar to get some Acai bowls for me and my family. I decided to bring my sister along for the journey.
We reached Nekter and it was so busy that we decided to just pick up breakfast from another place, but first, my sister and I went into a Trader Joe’s that was right next door. We walked around and bought a couple things before leaving.
As we left Trader Joe’s, there was a lot of traffic within the mini shopping center and I remember thinking to myself (after I road raged for a bit), “Jenni, just be grateful you have a car to get around in. You’ll get out of this shopping center soon.”
Finally got out of the parking lot and waiting in more traffic to get on the freeway.
My spidey senses began to tingle. As I sat in my car conversing with my sister, I felt that something bad was going to happen and sure enough, a millisecond after my feeling I feel a massive impact and hear the worst noise ever. My head hit against the headrest and as I pressed hard on my break, I felt my car hit the car in front of me.
All I remember is hearing my sister yell, “OH SH*T” and the crunching sound of my car.
I sat in my seat in utter shock and began to cry hysterically. I actually stopped breathing for a moment that felt like hours.
If it wasn’t for my sister, I probably would have passed out completely.
This ended up being a 4 car accident and a complete nightmare.
My first car, that used to be my grandpa’s car, was totaled and my mental state was stricken with even more anxiety.
I did not go near or into a car for about 3 days, until I had to in order to see family. I was almost about to give that trip up due to my anxiety, but thankfully I was blessed with an amazing girlfriend who helped me through my anxiety and texted me through my first car ride.
I am currently driving again, but not very long distances and have been going to chiropractic therapy three times a week. I am soon going to be seeing a psychologist to help with my anxiety and depression again.
Although I still get massive anxiety when I step into a car, I have been trying to remind myself about the grace and protection that God can provide. It has been an uphill struggle since the accident and my depression has worsened a bit since then, but I have to keep reminding myself about the goodness of my Holy Father and pursue a life worth living.
I am not going to lie, there are A LOT of days in which I just lay in bed and sleep because it feel as if my whole body in under 1000 pounds. Some days I get more irritable quicker and since the accident I have hurt some of the people I love. It’s hard. It’s a challenge. But at the end of the day I have to stare at myself in the mirror and wonder about my purpose that I have on this earth and to stay strong in order to find out my purpose for living and surviving as long as I have.
Anyways, may God bless and watch over YOU always ❤ I love you all