Over 7 years ago, I met a person on xbox and I never thought that this individual would impact my life the way they did.
When I was in middle school/junior high, I dealt with a lot of petty friendship drama and had a lot of people turn against me from idiotic rumors that spread like wildfire amongst my peers. There were times where I would find myself sitting alone on a planter waiting for my classes to start and finish so that I could go home and get on xbox.
One day after school, I decided to play my favorite game at the time, Halo Reach ❤ Halo Reach was my outlet and I had met a lot of friends through that game.
Not going to lie, my gamertag caused many to try and add me on xbox. My gamertag was and still is, That1AznGirl (smart, I know hahah). My brother and I had decided on that name when I got my first xbox live account. I did not realize how much attention I would gain from my gamertag at first, because I was super naive and did not realize that “girls didn’t play video games”, since I grew up playing video games with my brother. Video games were second nature to me! So shoutout to my brother for introducing me to them!
Anyways! So one day after school I decided to play team death-match on Halo and solo queue. After the match ended and I had gotten my ass handed to me, one of the guys on the other team sent me an invite to his xbox live party chat. I was hesitant at first to join, but curiosity got the best of me and I joined the party. There were a couple of voices and each voice was shocked to hear a girl respond to their inquiries. The party was a bit hectic but one voice in particular stood out to me and it came from the gamertag BillyBobJoeJr (Name has been changed for privacy reasons).
BillyBobJoeJr’s voice was unique and I absolutely loved it. His voice was deep and had a tone to it that I have never heard before. I tried to talk to him specifically most of the time and then added him as a friend later on. We would soon find ourselves playing halo with each other and talking in xbox chat parties.
I looked forward to talking and playing with him everyday after school. He soon became one of my best friends.
Fast forward 6 or so years later, we were still in touch and although there were some rocky moments in our friendship, I always found myself coming back to him.
BillyBobJoeJr quickly became someone I would compare all my other relationships to. No one was like him and I was never able to find some one I could banter with like I could with him; it was then that I realized I was falling for a guy I met on xbox.
Within those years, we added each other on Facebook and had exchanged phone numbers. * Side Note: When I first saw what he looked like on Facebook, my heart skipped a few beats. In other words, I thought he was the cat’s meow 🙂 * Despite the hardships that I had mentioned earlier, he had never left my side.
We were really good friends and I did not think much of it. We would flirt here and there and have hour long phone calls and video chats, but he lives across the country.
Throughout my high school and college years, I continued to date and dump people (WOW that sounds horrible hahah to be fair, I had only dated a couple of people throughout all those years and they did not last) because I was never truly happy in any of those relationships.
Towards the end of 2016 and beginning of 2017 is when our relationship started to change. I found myself falling for him more and more each time we spoke. My goal was to meet him in person after all these years. I had planned to go out to South Carolina next year if I got accepted into an internship position in Virginia, BUT something wild came over me and I told my mother that I wanted to meet BillyBobJoeJr this summer.
My mom had known about our friendship and she thought he was a really good guy, so she helped me make my dream a reality. About 10 weeks ago, I got on my laptop and looked up flights to South Carolina. I ended up booking a flight and a hotel for the last week/very beginning of July and August.
After I had booked my flight, I called BillyBobJoeJr (AKA Mark) and told him that I was able to be out there in 8 weeks. We were both in disbelief.
Also, I had just started summer school and would leave for this trip the Sunday after my classes ended. Needless to say, it was extremely hard to focus on anything school related.
Each week passed painfully slow and each day I became more and more anxious. We had talked about a potential relationship before, but we never really thought anything of it because we had never met each other.
When I told some friends of mine what I was doing, many of them thought I was insane and one friend told me I would end up on the show “48 Hours”. They could not fully understand the type of relationship Mark and I had. I went into this journey solo with my heart tucked in my sleeve.
The week before I was about to leave, I could not help but continue to ask him if he wanted me to go out there. After many discussions and texts, we decided that it was final: I would be getting on a plane and flying across the country.
Sunday July 30, 2017
This was it, I was leaving tonight to go to the airport and fly across the country by myself to meet a guy I have never met in person.
Am I completely insane???? Probably
I had a few friends visit me that day to help calm my nerves before heading to the airport.
I am getting in my sister’s car to head to the airport with her and my mom. I was unusually quiet the whole way there. My palms were starting to sweat and I could feel my heart beating a little faster in my chest.
I finally make it to the airport and give my mom one last hug before they start their journey back home and before I started my journey across the country.
I am walking through the gate that leads to a plane taking me to Dallas/Fortworth, Texas.
After a sleepless flight, I had finally made it to Dallas for a 5 hour layover. During this layover, I was able to meet another xbox friend and chill with them for a bit. Ericaroo, if you ever happen to read this, thank you for coming to the airport to hang out with me!
July 31, 2017
This is it. I finally landed in North Charleston. I received a text from Mark telling me that he was at the airport. I nervously got off the plane and walked through the airport to the baggage claim area. I don’t see him.
As I awaited nervously for my bag, I kept my eyes peeled for him.
I finally grab my bag and my phone starts vibrating. I look down at my phone and the contact “Muffin Man” appeared on my screen….it was him.
“Hello?” I answered anxiously
“Wow this topiary is sooooo green!” was the response on the other side
“What the F*ck?!” was what I was thinking when I heard those words escape from his mouth.
“Ummm what?! Are you here!??? Are you in the baggage claim area????” I began to question him
“Wow these plants are soooooo greeeennnn”
-___- <— My face
As I continued to look around frantically, I noticed that there were topiaries around the baggage claim area.
OH MY GOSH HE PROBABLY SEES ME RIGHT NOW
“ARE YOU BEHIND ME?” I asked frantically
“I don’t know, am I?” I hear from the other side.
I finally got the courage to turn around and there he was….touching the leaves on the topiary -.-
I dropped my duffle bag and scurried my way into his arms.
I buried my head into his chest and all I could say was…. “You’re Real”
We left the airport and as we walked to his car, we would exchange glances at each other. I even poked him every few minutes to make sure he was there and I wasn’t dreaming. Then he wrapped his arm around my shoulder and I wrapped mine around his back and we walked intertwined all the way to his car.
When we finally got into the hotel room, he sat on the bed next to me and said, “Hey, I never got that kiss that you promised you’d give to me at the airport.”
0.0 <.< >.>
“Oh? I thought you didn’t want it” was my smart ass remark.
I have kissed a few people here and there before, but I never understood what people were talking about when they said that you can feel a spark or connection with a kiss, until I kissed Mark.
That kiss was unlike any other kiss I have ever had.
The next few days were something out of a fairy tale.
We went to the beach at night and watched the waves dance under the moonlight and he would grab my waist from behind and hug me. OH! I also forgot to mention that he is around 6 ft 1″ and I’m 5″5 sooooo he could easily rest his chin upon my head.
We spent a lot of time cuddling and watching anime and just enjoyed each others presence.
There were many times where I would catch myself staring at him with admiration while he was driving or just watching a show in our hotel room.
I remember laying beside him and staring into his eyes. It was then that I knew, I had found my soulmate.
The last night I was there and the next couple days to follow were the hardest days I have yet to encounter in my life.
I was to leave for the airport at 5:30 A.M. August 3rd.
The night before I was to leave, we spent it hand in hand.
We started the night dancing to “Descpacito” (the JB version) and “Perfect” by Ed Sheeran. I have no rhythm and it was very evident, but he was sweet and took the lead and also dipped me a couple times (I was impressed….Fricken getting Dirty Dancing up in this business lol).
After we danced we did other silly and cute things like me giving him a piggy back ride to the ice machine and doing front flips on the bed.
Then we later realized that there was a storm going on outside. It was raining with lightning and thunder. It was then that we laid in bed and listened to the song that absolutely ruined me, “Got You on My Mind” by NF. I laid on his chest, his arms around me as we listened to that song play on Pandora. It was then that I started to cry and he did as well. The realization that this would all end in the matter of a couple of hours was painful.
When the time finally came, we drove to the airport in silence. Tears slowly dripping down my face.
Saying goodbye to Mark was the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life. I sobbed uncontrollably as I walked into the airport not being able to turn around to see him drive off.
The next few hours and days to follow I found myself crying and blubbering like an idiot, whether it was in the privacy of my room or in my car.
I HAVE NEVER FELT A WORSE PAIN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. I left my heart in Charleston. There was and still is an indescribable pain that I feel in my chest/heart. I feel as if it hurts to breathe sometimes.
It wasn’t until after I got back home that we decided to make things “Official”.
We are now in a long distance relationship, but I could not be happier, for I have found my person.
There are a multitude of details that were left out and a lot of backstory that was left out as well because if I added everything I wanted to, I would actually have a full blown novel on my hands….ooops lol
BUT I hope to continue filling you all in on our journey and I am sorry I haven’t posted in a while.
May God Bless and Watch Over YOU Always ❤